ECDX was this weekend, and officially my final game as captain, though I was not the game captain because we have a rotation and my co-captain did the game captaining.
I was elected out a week or so ago, which I am upset about in some ways and grateful for in others. Grateful in that I am pleased to have more time to work on my own game, and to continue to get stronger. I'm still on the coaching committee, still the WFTDA rep, and still heading the venue committee. So I have plenty to do. I will not lack for ways to contribute or service hours.
I am upset that my co-captain is a sneaky mofo who lied about my actions and misconstrued her own. I'm not sure what to do about that, but I am irritated at it, and really don't want to engage in a constructive way with her at the moment. I'm going to be civil and put my feelings aside because it's the right thing for the organization, but I'm not a fan, and I am not pleased with that aspect of the situation. Additionally, there were a lot of idiotic, immature, petty, and generally shitty situations that are entirely preventable with people making decisions for the team and not for themselves. But I don't know how we as an organization can effectively deal with that without insulating to a degree the captains and coaches from popular opinion. Some things we have to do aren't popular.
What I'm also struggling to say to my coaches and captains, however, is that I don't think the existing coach/captain structure is conducive to good coaching or to achieving the goals we set as a league. Electing captains and then expecting them to do a lot of coaching in their roles allows for some weird outcomes that aren't in line with the goals of coaching -- for example, captains that are inexperienced or not able to actually commit enough time to coaching. In this season, I myself was partially not reelected because of decisions that were not really my decisions -- they were unpopular aspects of policy. Or they were effectively coaching discipline for players acting inappropriately. *shrugs* You get who you elect, and that's not me at this point. But it may also not be the best outcome, and it may not allow for coaches/captains to effectively execute the league/coaching strategy.
Anyway, I'm going to put that into a good email, and then never speak of it again. Because I have bigger fish to fry. At the moment, I don't feel very positively toward Plan B, though.
Monday, June 26, 2017
Tuesday, June 20, 2017
Thursday, June 1, 2017
The Last Two Weeks
Derby practice since CT has been great in a lot of ways and challenging in a few others. Just before CT I finally got treatment for what turned out to be walking pneumonia, and was exacerbating a severe arthritis flareup. I felt like my feet and ankles just would not do what I wanted them to -- because they wouldn't. They were painful, hot and stiff pretty much all the time, while I was also wheezing. So...could be better, for sure.
The time since that game has been a series of improvements, in many regards, with some setbacks. I am starting, finally, to play my game again, the way I can play when I am at my best. I'm going to continue to work through this stuff, with the hopes of getting to my full potential.
Good, today:
1. Power is returning. I am finally at the point where I feel at like 90% of my physical capability. Had a lot of successful jam, and blocking was reasonably competent.
2. Stopped holding myself back. I think because of the pain I just was not using my full power. I'd go in for a hit and sort of hold back a little, because I knew it was going to hurt a lot. Well, it doesn't hurt much any more. I'm not holding back.
3. Played low -- used my hips or full body checks, instead of my shoulders. Was largely legal.
Bad:
1. I was not thoroughly in it to win it, mentally. It was almost like there was a tape running in the background, distracting me. I was often moving slower than is ideal, because preoccupation.
2. Feet/ankles are not quite there, but they're getting there. Gotta keep at it.
To Work on:
1. Everything. Mainly getting the feet/ankles in shape.
2. Keep building on things that are working.
The time since that game has been a series of improvements, in many regards, with some setbacks. I am starting, finally, to play my game again, the way I can play when I am at my best. I'm going to continue to work through this stuff, with the hopes of getting to my full potential.
Good, today:
1. Power is returning. I am finally at the point where I feel at like 90% of my physical capability. Had a lot of successful jam, and blocking was reasonably competent.
2. Stopped holding myself back. I think because of the pain I just was not using my full power. I'd go in for a hit and sort of hold back a little, because I knew it was going to hurt a lot. Well, it doesn't hurt much any more. I'm not holding back.
3. Played low -- used my hips or full body checks, instead of my shoulders. Was largely legal.
Bad:
1. I was not thoroughly in it to win it, mentally. It was almost like there was a tape running in the background, distracting me. I was often moving slower than is ideal, because preoccupation.
2. Feet/ankles are not quite there, but they're getting there. Gotta keep at it.
To Work on:
1. Everything. Mainly getting the feet/ankles in shape.
2. Keep building on things that are working.
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